Today is the Autumn Equinox, otherwise known as Mabon, otherwise known as the 2nd harvest on the wheel of the year. The time of equal day and night before the earth tips us into the descent to winter. You wouldn't know it from where I am today. A sweltering 36 degree day and a crystal clear, rolling wave, inviting ocean. I swam in her beautiful waters today, possibly the last one until spring. The heat brewed up a wild storm of gale winds and now the rain.
After tucking my children into bed I went out into the howling and played my drum. My inside out drum, my blood drum, my witch drum. She keeps calling me to play her with my hand and not a beater. I feel the vibrations come off her face and travel down my arm through my body. There is no playing fatigue, no sore arms, just a sensation of energy moving to and fro, from drum to body and back again.
Balance between the worlds. Balance between the sleeping cherubs tucked into bed together with the dog and the kitten and creating spontaneous ritual in my back garden. Balance between the desire to continue knitting and sipping champagne with friends and the need to take two tired children home.
I am living in that space in between. The magick. The place where I sink deeper into self trust and self love.
How are you feeling balance in your life? or not?
Sometimes when I am in my brick terrace house with it's tiny garden, surrounded by city, when I am riding my bike through the city, when I am doing the school run and the pre-school run and the dance classes and birthday parties I feel like the Red Tent in the paddock becomes a dream. Did i really spend 4 days sleeping under stars, drumming a Glad of wild women shapeshifting into animals under a full moon? Do I really have that sisterhood that spreads from Tasmania to England and beyond? And on the nights of wild wind and dark moon strings I remember that yes, that is actually my life. And I give great thanks for this dark moon, showing up with the winds, blowing out the cobwebs and transforming all that no longer serves.
and brings me back to balance.